April was…a month. Shit and stupendous in not so equal measures. Your guess as to which overrode the other. My mood was predominately manic, though the days of depression were dark and bleak and so difficult I wanted to wall myself up and sleep for the rest of my life.
Also, Is it me or is this year playing on fast-forward? I’m just the slightest bit terrified about how quickly time is being eaten up…and how many teeth little Saga has now. Every time I look at her a new one is emerging, huge and white and incredibly sharp. Part wolf she is, I’m sure of it.
Even though April was hard I need to give thanks for books, predominately, without which I would be in a much worse place than I am in now. I also need to give thanks to music, the internet and – even though I only really watch Game Of Thrones and the news – the TV.
I’ve set myself a goal of reading 100 books this year in memory of my friend and fellow bookworm Lucy, who was taken from us last year. To date I’ve read 27 books, 5 of those being in April. I’m not overly impressed with myself, seen as though my aim was to power through 10 at least (I’ve set a goal of 100 books for this year, but obviously I’d like to surpass that in Lucy’s honour…)
Still, considering that I spent many a day staggering through, I shouldn’t beat myself up for too long. The books I did finish all made for compulsive reading. (One of my self-imposed rules for this 100 Books In A Year Challenge is that if a book hasn’t grabbed me within an hour, I put it down and I move onto the next.)
The books were:
- Where The Mountain Casts It’s Shadow by Maria Coffey
- A Man In Love By Karl Ove Knausgaard
- The Sun And Her Flowers By Rupi Kaur
- Hashtag Authentic By Sara Tasker
- Gossip From The Forest by Sara Maitland
If you want more on books, I write about everything I read over at my book club @sliceofthemoonbookclub
One of the reasons I think I might not have read more than 5 books in April was because of the fact I grabbed my phone and scrolled Instagram at moments when I should have been grabbing a book. However, some good did come from grabbing my phone and I found myself cleaning up who I follow on Instagram. I only want to follow accounts that spark joy in me, who fuel my creativity and thirst to live a better life.
Some of the accounts that I started to follow:
Other good stuff I found on the internet:
My consumption of music since I’ve had Saga has been dire. Proper dire. (I have, on the other hand, been making music which you can investigate here and here if you so wish…) If I compare my consumption to what it used to be I…actually, I don’t want to do that. It’s too sad. I’ll just share with you the stuff I listened to this month that gave me all the goosebumps.
I don’t watch TV per se. I can’t veg out on the couch and flick through the channels. I’d rather read a book. I will, however, watch select programs on occasion, programs that really interest me. One of those is, of course Game Of Thrones.
I think we can all agree that Episode 3 of Season 8 pretty much blew everything fantastical that’s ever been made out of the water completely. I never thought I’d say it, but Lord Of The Rings even… The atmosphere that accompanied the episode was harrowing and addictive. The moment when the Dothraki stormed, flaming swords held high…the moment went the swords went dark… There will never be a moment like that, so heavy and sobering and brilliant, for as long as we all shall live. Hold me to that, I speak truth!
Other programs I tuned into:
The Office : US Version (Re-watching this ABSOLUTE GEM because I’ve needed to laugh. I’ve really needed to laugh.)